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Well I don't know how many people will be reading this but Charity said it was fun so I figured I would try it out!
Nothing really going on today except been a lot calmer with Aaron. He had a bad day yesterday, or I should say I did, but he had bad gas and was hard to please last night. I have decided to keep up the formula feeding instead of breastfeeding because I am going to get back on seroqul, my medication for my bipolar disorder. That and I have been sick and breastfeeding is keeping me from having any time to sleep and get better. I am pretty sure he will be able to get back into breastfeeding in the future though as long as I keep pumping! lol I am sure everyone is loving my post so far reading about breastfeedings and whatnot. :-p
So I have been in a lot of pain still from the c section but it is okie, more of a dull pain now with random shots of sharp pain. Nothing I can't handle but it is annoying.
Aaron seems more attentive today, which is neat! For a whole hour or so he was just sitting up in my lap watching and looking around the room, watching the tv with volleyball olympics, then looking up at my face and started it all over. Very calm and quiet throughout. I think the formula is easier on his stomach right now too, given I haven't been able to figure out what foods he can handle better than others yet.
I am pretty sure his eyes are going to turn brown, which is really cool, I have always been a fan of dark eyes. His hair curls when it is wet too. :-D He definitely got that from his Daddy, Mathis. He has more of the darker features.
The gymnastics haven't come on yet and I am getting so sleepy already! Darn you China for being so far away on the other side of the globe!
I got to talk to Emma today, Mathis' older sister who has a baby boy as well and it was refreshing to talk to someone who has a baby as the same time as me. Although her son is 14? months now? It is nice to talk to her and to hear her understand my conflictions. I felt really crappy earlier when I was trying to decide to breast feed or not. I was just contemplating and then to start my meds again is a huge let down for me, but I know what I need to do and doing that will benefit everyone.
So I am trying to go to church again, been saying that for awhile now. Just hard to do when you feel like you may never love a church like I once did. I know that there is something special about this life, this world, but I just have the hardest time figuring out what it is. There are so many things that I can conflict with when it comes to the LDS church, but than again I find cons in every religion I study. Figuring out what I truly believe in is what I really want to do. I WANT to believe in something, I really do. I want that base I had once in my life and loved so much. I want that feeling of understanding and acceptance of something I need to have faith in.
Another note,
Victoria needs to make me some Filipino food and that will brighten my bad days!
Nothing really going on today except been a lot calmer with Aaron. He had a bad day yesterday, or I should say I did, but he had bad gas and was hard to please last night. I have decided to keep up the formula feeding instead of breastfeeding because I am going to get back on seroqul, my medication for my bipolar disorder. That and I have been sick and breastfeeding is keeping me from having any time to sleep and get better. I am pretty sure he will be able to get back into breastfeeding in the future though as long as I keep pumping! lol I am sure everyone is loving my post so far reading about breastfeedings and whatnot. :-p
So I have been in a lot of pain still from the c section but it is okie, more of a dull pain now with random shots of sharp pain. Nothing I can't handle but it is annoying.
Aaron seems more attentive today, which is neat! For a whole hour or so he was just sitting up in my lap watching and looking around the room, watching the tv with volleyball olympics, then looking up at my face and started it all over. Very calm and quiet throughout. I think the formula is easier on his stomach right now too, given I haven't been able to figure out what foods he can handle better than others yet.
I am pretty sure his eyes are going to turn brown, which is really cool, I have always been a fan of dark eyes. His hair curls when it is wet too. :-D He definitely got that from his Daddy, Mathis. He has more of the darker features.
The gymnastics haven't come on yet and I am getting so sleepy already! Darn you China for being so far away on the other side of the globe!
I got to talk to Emma today, Mathis' older sister who has a baby boy as well and it was refreshing to talk to someone who has a baby as the same time as me. Although her son is 14? months now? It is nice to talk to her and to hear her understand my conflictions. I felt really crappy earlier when I was trying to decide to breast feed or not. I was just contemplating and then to start my meds again is a huge let down for me, but I know what I need to do and doing that will benefit everyone.
So I am trying to go to church again, been saying that for awhile now. Just hard to do when you feel like you may never love a church like I once did. I know that there is something special about this life, this world, but I just have the hardest time figuring out what it is. There are so many things that I can conflict with when it comes to the LDS church, but than again I find cons in every religion I study. Figuring out what I truly believe in is what I really want to do. I WANT to believe in something, I really do. I want that base I had once in my life and loved so much. I want that feeling of understanding and acceptance of something I need to have faith in.
Another note,
Victoria needs to make me some Filipino food and that will brighten my bad days!
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