Not a problem, but a blessing in disguise

Well I woke up feeling a little down...I had a dream that I never found a husband and I died alone. LOL. yeah.

I feel so lousy. I know that having a child is a great blessing. I know that having Aaron is something that I will never regret. I know that when I am with him I am always in love with his everything. I can't help but wonder if I am adequate for anyone. I know I know, having a child will sort out the stiffs and flakes in life. I guess I just donno any guy my age that is willing to be a step dad. Ha.

I pray every night that I will find him. Someday. I think I am only thinking about this because I had that dream.

I am going to the first wards valentines dinner tonight, its either that or stay home alone with aaron. Why not get out when you can, right?

Thank you Charity for chatting with me last night, it made me feel better. Secretly I wasn't feeling so great about anything.

Gotta go to work now. Yay.